Out Of My Tree

Okay, so this little number has been done by Karl and Avitable so far as my eyes can see and I have spent too long fighting with other nonsense today to get on with writing things properly.  Going to bed now.  Yes, it s still light. The ABCs of Me

• Accent: Estuary English dragged a little bit further up North - depending on my moodn - Saaffff London apples and pears pisstake geezer, or BBC news presenter.

• Breakfast or no breakfast: Breakfast is coffee, more coffee and maybe a bit more coffee.

• Chore I don’t care for: Ironing -  I hate it above even vacuuming.

• Dog or Cat: Cat every time.

• Essential Electronics: iPod, MacBook, and phone and digital camera… and TV… and cable box…

• Favorite Cologne: Well, I’m changing this to perfume - again depending on mood CK Obsession, or CK Eternity… In fact anything from the CK range and I’m a bunny on speed.

• Gold or Silver: Silver.  I look stupid wearing gold.

• Handbag I carry most often: The one that fits my MacBook in it that cost £8 from  Asda.

• Insomnia: If I fall asleep when it’s light I’ll wake up when it’s dark - that is the rule.  At the moment I’m more about the Hypersomnia

• Job Title: Administrator, IT Champion and Office Geek

• Kids: 99% of the time I don’t want one, 1% of the time I realise I’m never going to have one.  Which.  Is.  Perfectly.  Fine.  Generally though, because the world is messed up I like them up until the age of about 8 and then I think they should be locked in cages and fed only flat food.

• Living Arrangements: I’m between houses… living with my parents.  Yes.  This is very sad.

• Most Admirable Trait: Being tenacious to the point of insanity.

• Naughtiest Childhood Behavior: Running away and frightening my parents by going missing for 8 hours.  I was hiding in the back garden and watched them going crazy.  The guilt has never stopped.

• Overnight hospital stays: Adenoidectomy when I was about six.  Nothing exciting.

• Phobias: Heights, spiders, the person on the outside of the window,

• Quote: “I think of my own possibility. I think of the way it is wasted. The way it will always be wasted because I’m sitting here waiting for someone to love me as is.” - Elizabeth Wurtzel, Prozac Nation OR “Q: What animal would you be if you could be an animal?
  A: You already are an animal”
  - Douglas Coupland

• Reason to smile: Have you seen the sky lately?  Even when it’s cloudy it’s beautiful

• Siblings: One.  Brother.  Adam.  Younger.  Fantastic.

• Time I wake up: 6:30-8:00 AM, on weekdays.  10.00a.m. - 2.00p.m. weekends.  Depending on ‘In’ or ‘Hyper’

• Unusual Talent or Skill: I can always pick out a harmony line, and can understand instruction manuals.

• Vegetable I Refuse to Eat: Brussels Sprouts.

• Worst Habit: Refusal to admit I’m wrong even in the face of overwhelming evidence.

• X-rays: Left Foot, left leg, left wrist and chest.

• Yummy Stuff: Marks and Spencers Double Chocolate Belgian Cheesecake OR Starbucks muffin.

• Zoo Animal I Like Most: Penguin. Camel.  Penguin.  Camel.  Penmel.  Caguin.

written by bec \\ tags: a-z, Meme

What did I do today? Got up, ate (almost an entire meal - it’s an achievement for me this week), watched the delicious delectable nom nom nom nom nom David Tennant on Doctor Who (some of the ‘faces’ he pulled in this one, sigh)

I also uploaded more things to Zazzle and read everything in Bloglines. If i didn’t comment it doesn’t mean I don’t love you, okay? It means your brilliance blinded me. And if I did comment it doesn’t mean your brilliance didn’t blind me it means I remembered to put my sunglasses on or I was stealing this meme from you.

Just for the record I stole/ borrowed/ copied like a mad woman from Penelope , Kevin, Karl and Hilly

The concept:

1. Type your answer to each of the questions below into Flickr Search .
2. Using only the first page of results, pick one image.
3. Copy and paste each of the URLs for the images into Big Huge Lab’s Mosaic Maker to create a mosaic of the picture answers.

The questions:

• 1. What is your first name?
• 2. What is your favorite food? right now?
• 3. What high school did you go to?
• 4. What is your favorite color?
• 5. Who is your celebrity crush? *
• 6. What is your favorite drink?
• 7. What is your dream vacation?
• 8. What is your favorite dessert?
• 9. What do you want to be when you grow up?
• 10. What do you love most in life?
• 11. What is one word that describes you?
• 12. What is your flickr name?

1. Rebecca Loos , 2. Cheese Toasties , 3. Band Sign , 4. Cerulean Blue Gradation , 5. david-tennant-1b , 6. Southern Comfort , 7. Seattle, Usa , 8. Lemon Cheesecake , 9. The Writer , 10. Swayin To The Music , 11. I’m So Tired Of Being Alone , 12. #74: my tree is leafing out

written by bec \\ tags: david tennant, Meme, mosiac meme

I took the day off work today. I had to. Well, how can you go to work when lifting your arms is a real struggle? To say I spent the whole day asleep would be an over exaggeration but except for a 10 minute period at around 3 and when I woke a couple of hours ago - yep, pretty much the whole day.

Now, of course, I cannot sleep which means I will be knackered tomorrow - but knackered I can cope with, tired is a state of normalcy at the moment - whatever today brought me was not ‘tired’, was not ‘knackered’… today felt like my body hated me and wanted to let me know that fact.

So, I got nothing done today and I had such big high hope type plans to get writing done and Scout palaver and all the usual nonsense.

Instead what I did was play around with Zazzle… Here is the result of that…

make custom gifts at Zazzle

More things will get added as and when.

Other than that I’m just going to do that meme that’s floating around. Stolen blatantly from Karl and Avi.

Who are you?
A weird and strange creature known as an English geek girl

What’s your Philosophy?
Anything for a quiet life

First thoughts in the morning…
Why does everything hurt? Where’s my coffee?

Your current mood is…?
Slipping into horrible blues

Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
Blogging about the film that I wrote has hit Number 1 in the charts. Obviously.

Define….

Life-
A journey and a destination

Love-
Is a doing word.

Success -
Knowing that you have done all that you can

Happiness-
The end of the struggle

Death-
The end and the beginning.

Fear-
The warning in your soul

What are your views on

Abortion
Funnily enough I’m with Karl on this - both parties should have a say and it should not be a decision taken lightly but it should be an option available to all.

Why poverty exists?
Because there will always be the ‘haves’ and the ‘have nots’.

The U.N-
A nice idea.

Wars- (by wars I mean wars in general)-
Giant pissing contests by those who can’t see past the end of their nose.

Suicide-
Selfish, but sometimes the only way to end the pain.

Your Faves…

Author-
Douglas Coupland

Book-
"Prozac Nation" - Elizabeth Wurtzel

Music Lyric-
"There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it’s time to face the truth,
I will never be with you."

Quote about life–
"If my doctor told me I had only six minutes to live, I wouldn’t brood. I’d type a little faster." - Isaac Asimov

Curse Word-
fuck

Movie-
When Harry Met Sally or Ghostbusters

Movie quote-
"I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible." - WHMS

Final Random Thoughts…..

What would be the best job in the world?
Screenwriter

And the worst job would be?
Police Officer

What is your biggest accomplishment to date?
Getting poetry published

What do you wish to accomplish in the next 5 years?
Finishing my book, my script and my dry spell.

If you die tomorrow…

Who will speak at your funeral?
Me, through a podcast I’d record earlier.

What would you like your eulogy to say?
She tried her hardest but even she couldn’t run away from the big beastie.

How would you hope to leave this world?
(Damn you Karl for pinching my first answer) Quietly with no pain.

Would you tell anyone you were going to die?
Yes. Comment whore right to the end.

If you wrote a final letter to be read at your funeral what would it say…
I did write one before and it was full of ‘it’ll all be okay’, ‘the sun always rises and sets and I’ll be watching over you’ - crap like that. I’ll do it better next time.

Upon arriving at the pearly gates..what would God say to you?
Kettle’s on.

And finally..Your famous last words?
Of course I can help you move your piano.

What does the word for “Dots” look like in braille?
I have no idea but you can look it up here

What is a quick way to start a conversation?
Nice weather we’re having. (I’m English remember)

And a quick way to end one?
I voted for the BNP

Last words?
Sleep required but I’m not going to get it. Sigh.

written by bec \\ tags: ill, Meme, shop, tired, zazzle

Yes, so I danced and drank (not a whole lot - I mean, yes, there was some mixing in there but there were non-alcoholic drinks too) I swear it was the Corona that killed me… I don’t think I embarrassed myself too badly… The shimmying to Love Shack may have been a little too vigorous but hey, my boobs didn’t pop out of my dress so no harm, no foul, right?

So I had a day of watching catch up TV on my plate. I watch Doctor Who from last night and all I can say to the end of that episode is gimme gimme gimme more! Seven (well six now) days really is too long to wait for the next episode! And then it was just House and Criminal Minds (which reminds me - someone said I reminded them of Penelope Garcia - not looks - just the way I am. That person is now on my favourite’s list!) set up as a continuous gazing at the magic box affair.

And then the phone rang… With a request I go and sort out someone’s wireless. Yes, I could have said no but the idea of leaving the house for a reason felt useful so I didn’t hav to say that I just slobbed around today. So I pulled on real clothes and put my MacBook in it’s protective case of joy and did the geek thing. The best thing? When I got back there was Chinese food! Yay!

So, because I am having the post alcohol tiredness I am being lazy and so it is Stealin’ a Meme-Type-Thing time! (Insert cheesy intro music). And this week’s special ‘Stealee’ is the too gorgeous to look at directly Lady Penelope (yes, you do have to curtsey when you speak yo her and NEVER show her your back!) from the wonderful It’s Me… Penelope who had a much better reason for being tired!

• 1. What time did you get up this morning? 9:15 for about 2 minutes and then the next time was about a quarter to two this afternoon.
• 2. Diamonds or pearls? Diamonds - they are my birthstone and I should be showered in them…
• 3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Iron Man - which was so good I am seeing it again!
• 4. What is your favorite TV show? Hmmm… At the moment? Toss up between House, Doctor Who and Battlestar Galactica… Or Brothers and Sisters, Criminal Minds, Lost, Grey’s Anatomy - when you say favourite, what do you mean?
• 5. What do you usually have for breakfast? Coffee. Venti. To go.
  
• 6. What is your middle name? Through a series of incidences I don’t have one. It was supposed to be Lisa.
  
• 7. What food do you dislike? Rhubarb, Gooseberries, Sprouts, and Salmon
  
• 8. What is your favorite CD at the moment? Led Zeppelin -Mothership
  
• 9. What kind of car do you drive? I don’t. In my dreams it’s an Aston Martin DB9
  
• 10. What is your favorite sandwich? Marks and Spencers New York Deli Pastrami Sandwich
  
• 12. Favorite item of clothing? My Zombies Ate My Brain t-shirt
  
• 13. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? USA baby. The whole enchilada.
  
• 14. Favorite brand of clothing? Artificial Duck - is that enough ass-kissing?
  
• 15. Where would you retire to? Either the US where I could sit on a porch growing old and crotchety or in a cottage on the South Coast of England.
  
• 16. What was your most recent memorable birthday? My 21st - all others since have been memory-less. Why? I just truly remember being happy.
  
• 17. Favorite sport to watch? I have to second Penelope on this. Rugby .
  
• 18. Furthest place you are sending this? Out into the world - I think the furthest person who reads this is Selma in Oz?
  
• 19. Are you a morning person or a night person? Oh definitely night - mornings is when I remember my teenage grunting days.
  
• 20. What is your shoe size? I wear either a 5 or a 6 (UK size) depending on style but my feet has recently shrunk just enough so I can’t wear a favourite pair of heels anymore!
  
• 21. Pets? 1 cat - the bane of my life, and my child substitute.
  
• 22. What did you want to be when you were little? I alternated between wanting to be a singer, an actreess, a fireperson and an accountant.
  
• 23. How are you today? Y’know, fine. Tired but feeling better than I have been.
  
• 24. What is your favorite candy? Maltesers
  
• 25. What is your favorite flower? Any colour rose - except red.
  
• 26. What is a day on the calendar you are looking forward to? 21st June - Mayoral Coffee Morning - raising money gives me a little buzz!
  
• 27. What is your full name? Rebecca Bennett. I know, I hate it too.
  
• 28. What are you listening to right now? Mmmm… iTunes hates me. Shine - Take That
  
• 29. What was the last thing you ate? Lemon Chicken with egg fried rice.
  
• 30. Do you wish on stars? I used to but sigh…
  
• 31. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Cerulean
  
• 32. How is the weather right now? Not raining - other than that haven’t a clue - is dark.
  
• 33. Last person you spoke to on the phone? Bloke who wanted broadband fixing.
  
• 34. Favorite soft drink? Coke. Classic.
  
• 35. Favorite restaurant? Chiquitos
  
• 36. Hair color? Faded Live Color XXL Red Passion
  
• 37. What was your favorite toy as a child? She-Ra
  
• 38. Summer or winter? Summer
  
• 39. Hugs or kisses? Hugs
  
• 40. Chocolate or Vanilla? Chocolate
  
• 41. Coffee or tea? Cofffffeeeeeeee
  
• 42. When was the last time you cried? Yesterday when I couldn’t get my hair to sit right. Yep, the hormones are all over the shop.
  
• 43. What is under your bed? Old writing crap and at least four black biros
  
• 44. What did you do last night? Went out to Civil Partnership reception. Out!!!!
  
• 45. What are you afraid of? Spiders, creepy crawlies, dying alone, and love.
  
• 46. Salty or sweet? Salty
  
• 47. How many keys on your key ring? Home - one, Work - six.
  
• 49. Favorite day of the week? Friday - pay day!
  
• 50. Do you make friends easily? I think so, but not as easily as I used to.

Yes, knackered now. Sleeping.

written by bec \\ tags: hangover-ish, Meme, questions

Right well. I have been a bit hopeless recently. The whole bleeding for 14 days and feeling like crap and wanting to kill everyone as my nerves are on fire and everyone in the whole world irritates me is over. I am now on a weird no mans land thing regarding my own personal medical hell. I forgot to refill my blood pressure medicine and with the bank holiday the two day waiting period it means the earliest I can collect it is Thursday (even though I have a doctors appointment on Wednesday (yes I love the NHS)) and even though I know it is my own fault and everything my body is doing including the rising blood pressure is my own doing because I am a lazy beached whale I still feel lie there is someone picking on me.

AND I am feeling guilt all the time about my blog and how I am not entertaining enough to keep the interest of anyone. I know it’s because I haven’t been out and about on the blogs recently and it’s not that you aren’t all fascinating and wonderful people (because you are) it’s just becasue I am so damned tired.

Yes, I know (I can hear my mum’s voice in my head right now) we are all tired and I should just suck it up and get on with it but I can’t. I am so down at the moment.

I have been transferring all the Scout crap off my computer and putting all my own stuff back on so I can carry around all my ‘beautiful’ memories but I’m serious when I say I have no idea why I am bothering with all of it.

I am finding it so damn hard to write anything here that doesn’t just sound like whinging. Oh, I know it’s my blog and I can cry if I want to but the traditionally English part of me is screaming at me to STFU and be polite and not discuss my feelings, or be overemotional or… oh God. I’m sorry.

I had something I was actually going to write about - what was it?

Oh yes.

I am so unbelievably horny at the moment.

During the whole enforced menstrual cycle thing I was feeling anything but… The day I finished (yesterday) this wave of want went over me and as I was sitting in the cinema I fantasised a little and wished I weighed about half what I weigh now, looked a lot less like me and a lot more like somebody good looking and could just go to a club, pick someone up and scratch that itch. Nope. Those days are well and truly behind me as well as being ridiculously dangerous.

But is this what I really want?

No.

As you know (or may not) the last time I felt love not alone wanted needed I don’t know how to describe it alive(?) has been playing on my mind a lot recently. It was 9 years ago and since then I have done everything in my power to make sure I don’t feel that again. The one time I have let myself believe turned out to be a huge mistake that nearly cost me my oldest friendship. I am a stupid person in life, but in love? There are pieces of toast with more common sense.

None of this is really adding up to a happy Bec at the moment. And yes, when I go to the doctors on Wednesday I will be begging her to help me stop feeling like this.

Oh how I wish Eternal Sunshine were real.

Anyway, a bit of lightness in an otherwise dark day. A meme. Stolen from Penelope at It’s Me… Penelope , who in turn stole it from Karl at Secondhand Trytophan who in turn stole it from Delmer at What’s a Delmer Look Like? - is this enough linkage?

The Rules: You highlight the things you can do and you leave in normal type the things you can’t. It’s that simple.

1. Give advice that matters in one sentence.
2. Tell if someone is lying. (I used to be able to but no more)
3. Take a photo.
4. Score a baseball game.
5. Name a book that matters.
6. Know at least one musical group as well as is possible.
7. Cook meat somewhere other than the grill.
8. Not monopolize the conversation.
9. Write a letter.
10. Buy a suit.
11. Swim three different strokes. (Being a beached whale means BEACHED)
12. Show respect without being a suck-up.
13. Throw a punch.
14. Chop down a tree.
15. Calculate square footage.
16. Tie a bow tie.
17. Make one drink, in large batches, very well.
18. Speak a foreign language.
19. Approach a woman out of his league. (I am changing to man and my - yes, or else I would be able to approach no man!)
20. Sew a button.
21. Argue with a European without getting xenophobic or insulting soccer.
22. Give a woman an orgasm so that he doesn ’t have to ask after it. (Even if I change the words round I still have no idea what this means)
23. Be loyal.
24. Know her poison, without standing there, pondering like a dope.
25. Drive an eightpenny nail into a treated two-by-four without thinking about it. (If this is an ordinairy nail then yes I can do this)
26. Cast a fishing rod without shrieking or sighing or otherwise admitting defeat.
27. Play gin with an old guy.
28. Play go fish with a kid.
29. Understand quantum physics well enough that he can accept that a quarter might, at some point, pass straight through the table when dropped.
30. Feign interest.
31. Make a bed.
32. Describe a glass of wine in one sentence without using the terms nutty, fruity, oaky , finish, or kick.
33. Hit a jump shot in pool.
34. Dress a wound.
35. Jump-start a car (without any drama). Change a flat tire (safely). Change the oil.
36. Make three different bets at a craps table.
37. Shuffle a deck of cards.
38. Tell a joke.
39. Know when to split his cards in blackjack.
40. Speak to an eight-year-old so he will hear.
41. Speak to a waiter so he will hear.
42. Talk to a dog so it will hear.
43. Install: a disposal, an electronic thermostat, or a lighting fixture without asking for help. (I’ve never tried a disposal but I’m reckoning it shouldn’t be all that hard. It’s all about RTFM)
44. Ask for help.
45. Break another man’s grip on his wrist.
46. Tell a woman’s dress size.
47. Recite one poem from memory.
48. Remove a stain .
49. Say no.
50. Fry an egg sunny-side up.
51. Build a campfire.
52. Step into a job no one wants to do .
53. Sometimes, kick some ass.
54. Break up a fight.
55. Point to the north at any time.
56. Create a play-list in which ten seemingly random songs provide a secret message to one person. (Ooo, podcast potentail here!)
57. Explain what a light-year is.
58. Avoid boredom.
59. Write a thank-you note.
60. Be brand loyal to at least one product.
61. Cook bacon.
62. Hold a baby. (can, yes, afraid of doing so? Yes.)
63. Deliver a eulogy. (one of the harder things I’ve ever had to do)
64. Know that Christopher Columbus was a son of a bitch.
65. Throw a baseball over-hand with some snap.
66. Throw a football with a tight spiral. (If you mean put some spin on a rugby ball - yes, if I think about it)
67. Shoot a 12-foot jump shot reliably.
68. Find his way out of the woods if lost. (Follow stream or sunlight - if both of those aren’t around… panic…)
69. Tie a knot.
70. Shake hands.
71. Iron a shirt. (yes, well? No)
72. Stock an emergency bag for the car
73. Caress a woman’s neck. (Can we change that to a man’s neck?)
74. Know some birds.
75. Negotiate a better price.

See there are some things I can do. Oh and No. 22. if this means what I think it means then I can do it… without changing the words.

written by bec \\ tags: Meme, Sorry, whinging

I simply could not do one more whiney post and am a little worried about doctor’s appointment tomorrow so am injecting a little random into this increasingly annoying hell. (I would write about why I’m finding it annoying but it’s only more perfectionist crap and who the hell wants to read that?)

So. I pressed the Take a Random Quiz link and it brought me to the incredibly useful What’s Your Inner Colour? (my answers are in bold)

1. When it comes to emotions, you:
   • Feel at your worst when you are tied down or dependent
   • Can lose your temper quickly, but get over things fast
   • Tend to get bent out of shape if things aren’t totally perfect
   • Cry easily, laugh easily, and just tend to be pretty emotional overall
   • Aren’t scared of anything - you’re fearless
   • Are always smiling and a total optimist
2. At work or school, you:
   • Are daring and very innovative in your ideas
   • Hate to sit still and need to do something high energy at all times
   • Prefer to do something than sit around discussing it
   • Are always in the middle of many projects
   • Tend to avoid conflict and dissent
   • Like to be in charge of a group of people
3. Your life philosophy is:
   • You were put on this earth to be an important person
   • Life is an adventure, and you push things to the limit
   • If it’s not fun, it’s not worth doing
   • Life is all about the physical, concrete pleasures
   • Caring for others feeds your soul.
   • You can never be too rich - or have too many toys
4. Your friends would all agree that you:
   • Love to perform and get attention
   • Have trouble expressing your emotions and feelings
   • Are a good listener and are almost always understanding
   • Are totally adventurous - eager to push everything to the limit
   • Have a great sense of humor and tell the best jokes
   • Can go a bit overboard with organizing and planning
5. Which best describes you?
   • "I believe I can change the world in important ways"
   • "I tend to prefer concrete ideas to abstract theories"
   • "I love things that make my heart race - like roller coasters and motorcycles"
   • "I am a spontaneous, spur of the moment type of person"
   • "I am very competitive and love to win"
   • "I tend to feel guilty if I can’t help someone out

This apparently means that:

Your Inner Color is Blue

Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart.You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone. Your Career: You need to help others in your job to feel satistifed. You would be a great nurse, psychologist, or counselor.

written by bec \\ tags: blogging rubbish, Blogthings, Meme

I just want to start this off with a Happy Birthday to the Blog God/Lord/Master/President/Guru and all round Nice Guy - Dave from Blogography. If you don’t know who he is then I am here to tell you that your life is poorer for it. I have never had the pleasure of meeting him face to face (I hope to rectify that one day) but from what other’s have said it’s like meeting the Pope… but with more booze.

Happy Birthday Dave. You’re even hot when you’re hungover.

So, when I do a meme, it’s not because I can’t be bothered to write something new and shiny. I suppose it’s got something to do with fitting in… and following the crowd… And that’s as deep as I’m getting today - the reason is hidden in the meme.

So, stolen from SJ and Kapgar…

Ten seconds ago I was distracting myself by hunting for a shiny new mobile.
Ten minutes ago I was answering comments from lovely lovely people.
Ten days ago I was organising Mum and Dad’s Silver Wedding Anniversary and totally not stressing out about it.
Ten weeks ago I was sorting out someone’s wireless network.
Ten months ago I was organised in a new house and ‘lovely’ housemates had just moved in.
Ten years ago I was at uni in the first year falling in love… and being me.
:::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Ten years from now I will be staring 40 in the face and not be afraid.
Ten months from now I will have ticked one of the boxes.
Ten weeks from now I will have moved out into my own place… again…
Ten days from now I will have assimilate whatever Wednesday brings into my life and getting on with it.
Ten minutes from now I will be holding my cat, stroking her chest and trying to slow her breathing.
Ten seconds from now I will press publish.

written by bec \\ tags: Happy Birthday Dave!, Meme

Just a short post.

Read this. It made me laugh.

Well, anything with the phrase;

They want people to have what they call “well-maintained” whips.

in it is sure to raise a smile.

Talk about Health & Safety gone mad.

And now a meme stolen from Karl and Hilly

Here’s how it works:

1. Go to www.photobucket.com
2. Type in your answer to the question in the “search” box
3. Use only the first page
4. Insert the picture into your Blog

1.) What is your relationship status?

2.) What is your current mood?

3.) Who is your favorite band/artist?

4.) What is your favorite movie?

5.) What kind of pet do you have?

6.) Where do you live?

7.) Where do you work?

8.) What do you look like?

9.) What do you drive?

10.) What did you do last night?

11.) What is your favorite TV show?

12.) Describe yourself.

13.) What are you doing today?

14.) What is your name?

15.) What is your favorite candy?

written by bec \\ tags: crucifixion advice, Meme

Okay, so this is a day late but, well, I didn’t take a day off on Feb 29th so yesterday was it in lieu. Praying I get this in before the wireless goes off again!

……………………. Yay!

From the depths of SJ’s mind comes questions that should be answered.

1. If you had to completely give up one of the following for the rest of your life, which would you sacrifice and why: Watching television, blogging or sex?

Sex. Definitely. Wouldn’t miss it.

2. Which do you drink most often and why: Tap water, bottled plain water or “enhanced” water?

Bottles plain water - I just always carry a bottle with me - even though enough of it falls out of the sky and I know I’ll never die of thirst, but it feels comforting to know I have it with me… It’s a hard plastic liquid filled comfort blanket.

3. What one movie has had the greatest impact on you as a person and why?

Singing in the Rain - from the first time that I saw this movie I just knew that somewhere out there had to be a group of people who would work together to make something beautiful… and a man would dance around with an umbrella singing about me. It’s better to say it about Singing in the Rain than High School Musical, right? Technicolored dreams… sigh…

4. If money/employment was of no consideration, where would you live and why?

The US of A baby! Anywhere! I love England, I do, but the way this country sees things (in shades of hoodie grey) is enough to make a grown girl cry. It may just be the way the movies tell it but the US always seems to be more hopeful, more colourful, more song and dance-able, more cheery.

5. Do you remember what life was like B.C. (before cellphones)? Compare and contrast your life then and now. Cite three examples of what you have gained or lost by using one. Include a pie chart showing the percentages of time spent on the phone, and a bar graph illustrating how your social life has been affected.

Barely. I remember having to wait in for phone calls, having to find working pay phones to ask mundane questions like ‘which flavour yoghurt do you want again?’ ad never knowing where people were. I also remember peace and quiet and being able to not be bothered… Sigh…

Pie chart shows internet time (crappy wap phone) as blue, texting as red, phone calls as green and writing notes for blog posts as yellow.

Bar chart shows progression of planning time for socialising has increased; whereas actual being out time has dramatically decreased as plans get lost in translation.

To play you can either answer SJ’s questions and link back here or you can answer mine below and link back to this post… Ooo, choices, choices…

Right my five questions.

1. What’s the most embarrassing thing you have thought about blogging about, and then changed your mind?
2. If you weren’t doing what you were doing now, what would you be doing?
3. If you could take over anyone’s body for a day in a Being John Malkovich style, who would it be and why?
4. If you could erase one person/show from teevee who/what and why?
5. How do you pronounce meme?

written by bec \\ tags: Meme, querypalooza, questions

I stole this from Kapgar mostly because it is pure gold, but also because it fits in nicely with the navel gazing I’ve been doing recently… So the idea is to write a letter to a younger version of yourself. I’m going for 16 just purely because that was the age it all started to go a little wibbly…

Dear Bec,

Okay, so you know how you always had that dream that one day a you from the future would come back to tell you how to live your life? Well, here you are.

Right now you are miserable. Your GCSE’s are not going as well as you’d like, you’re convinced you are never going to really know love and that life isn’t worth living. Go to a doctor. Tell them how you feel and make them listen. Depression is not a dirty word. Prozac will make you feel sick but this doesn’t mean you should give up on anti-depressants. Trust me, you don’t have to feel this way - there is no magic cure but there is help. In fact, go to the doctor more – that’s what they are there for. Just because you have had some idiot’s in the past does not mean that you will not find a good one. They do exist.

And while I’m on this subject - you will never get a better opportunity to get into shape. Go swimming, walk places, go to the gym. Get over the embarrassment. You will feel better for it. I know it sounds like nagging but listen to the voice of experience. It’s only going to get harder.

Try not to worry quite so much. You are never going to be everyone’s best friend but there is no one out there who truly hates you. In fact you will find out more people know who you are and like you at school than you ever imagined. And I am still friends with them now. Life is not a rehearsal, even though you play things out and over-analyse them before they have happened,

Don’t accept things because it feels too hard to change them. The school is going to screw you with your A-Levels. Fight to keep the subjects open. And for God’s sake, don’t take Business Studies or Maths. You may like the cold clinical world of maths but your brain just isn’t built for it. Not the way it’s taught at sixth form.

Keep writing, even when you think you are just repeating yourself over and over, one day you will use those piles of notes and wish you had more. I’m not going to tell you that everything you write is golden but… it’s certainly shiny.

Save some money. Really. I know you think you’re going to have plenty but… well, no. Do not become one of those statistics. In fact, re-evaluate your whole outlook on money. Keep the generous streak but remember to look after yourself and always have something in reserve.

You are going to meet some wonderful people over the next few years. They will make you feel as if you are the best person in the whole world to know. You don’t need to impress them. You do not have to be better than every one else.

There is going to be one person who will break your heart for no reason. I tell you this not so you can avoid the experience, because everyone should have his or her heart broken once (just once), but so that you don’t let it kill that spark I know you still have.

The computer is a good place to hide, and as you will discover – a great place to let yourself go. In fact learn as much as you can about it. Really learn. Oh, and buy an Apple Mac as soon as you can afford to. Life becomes so much easier then!

Sing. More. Everyday. You’ll regret not having the practice. Dance whenever you can. Grab every opportunity with both hands. The only regret you should have is for the things you did not do. Oh, and get serious about learning a musical instrument. You won’t believe how many times that’ll help you!

I want to give you a list of people and places to avoid and ones to run towards but if I did that you would not be living – just following a script. And, although we both know how comforting that is, it means you miss out on the spontaneous and that’s what makes you feel alive.

Oh, and don’t say I never gave you nothing but some hokey advice. A little pressie for your 21st birthday. The winning lottery numbers for Saturday 10th April 1999 were 10, 18, 25, 32, 35, 36 Bonus Ball 2.

Bec (Aged 29)

written by bec \\ tags: letter to myself, Meme, navel gazing