Out Of My Tree

I simply could not do one more whiney post and am a little worried about doctor’s appointment tomorrow so am injecting a little random into this increasingly annoying hell. (I would write about why I’m finding it annoying but it’s only more perfectionist crap and who the hell wants to read that?)

So. I pressed the Take a Random Quiz link and it brought me to the incredibly useful What’s Your Inner Colour? (my answers are in bold)

1. When it comes to emotions, you:
   • Feel at your worst when you are tied down or dependent
   • Can lose your temper quickly, but get over things fast
   • Tend to get bent out of shape if things aren’t totally perfect
   • Cry easily, laugh easily, and just tend to be pretty emotional overall
   • Aren’t scared of anything - you’re fearless
   • Are always smiling and a total optimist
2. At work or school, you:
   • Are daring and very innovative in your ideas
   • Hate to sit still and need to do something high energy at all times
   • Prefer to do something than sit around discussing it
   • Are always in the middle of many projects
   • Tend to avoid conflict and dissent
   • Like to be in charge of a group of people
3. Your life philosophy is:
   • You were put on this earth to be an important person
   • Life is an adventure, and you push things to the limit
   • If it’s not fun, it’s not worth doing
   • Life is all about the physical, concrete pleasures
   • Caring for others feeds your soul.
   • You can never be too rich - or have too many toys
4. Your friends would all agree that you:
   • Love to perform and get attention
   • Have trouble expressing your emotions and feelings
   • Are a good listener and are almost always understanding
   • Are totally adventurous - eager to push everything to the limit
   • Have a great sense of humor and tell the best jokes
   • Can go a bit overboard with organizing and planning
5. Which best describes you?
   • "I believe I can change the world in important ways"
   • "I tend to prefer concrete ideas to abstract theories"
   • "I love things that make my heart race - like roller coasters and motorcycles"
   • "I am a spontaneous, spur of the moment type of person"
   • "I am very competitive and love to win"
   • "I tend to feel guilty if I can’t help someone out

This apparently means that:

Your Inner Color is Blue

Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart.You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone. Your Career: You need to help others in your job to feel satistifed. You would be a great nurse, psychologist, or counselor.

written by bec \\ tags: blogging rubbish, Blogthings, Meme

This post is random in the style of Penelope over at It’s Me… Penelope…

First up a huge Happy Birthday to aka_monty over at The Daily Bitch , she is ‘celebrating’ turning 40 (the age I can’t wait to get to) so please hop over there and wish her all the best!

Okay, so I would like to apologise for yesterday’s immensely sucky post. I have reached new levels of crap with that and, yes, I feel really bad about it. I have quite a few excuses but no real reasons for it.

I picked up the pills that I forgot to blog about. The mean doctor prescribed me Provera. Being a serial Googler though I’ve just seen that you should avoid taking them if you have High Blood Pressure and a history of Depression. Further proof that he didn’t read my notes… Knobhead. But I’m seeing nice GP on Wednesday where I shall question the credentials of Meanie.

Have decided when I move into my own place I am going to buy a cello and learn to play it. There are ones on Ebay for about £150. Yo-Yo Ma makes it look so easy!

I have been doing more singing recently - building up lung capacity as much as possible. Made me think about the Blogger Christmahanukwanzaakah Online Holiday Concert when I embarrassed myself quite badly. Not being one to shy away from that kind of thing though I am proposing a summer version where we could do a kind of end of school concert? Any thoughts?

My wireless is bouncing up and down like a yo-yo (ma - oh I crack myself up) - what I wouldn’t do for a stable connection! Was really annoying especially as I was having a really entertaining IM conversation!

Offering a choice of post tomorrow - truth or fiction? Yes, it’s a GBBMC08 post so lots of sex eitherway…. or something truthful but embellished? Gotta make Sunday exciting somehow!

written by bec \\ tags: blog idea, knobhead doctors, random

To fill a post today I am going to answer some very important questions. The kind of questions you need need need to know the answers to.

1. What porn will I star in?

“The Quick & The Hard”

~ An Adult Feature Starring Bec ~

‘What Porn will you Star in?’ at QuizUniverse.com

2. How will I be defined in the Sexual Dictionary?

	Bec – [adjective]: Insatiable to the point of crazy
‘How will you be defined in the Sexual Dictionary?’ at QuizUniverse.com

3. What music should I make love to?

4. How Bisexual am I?

5. What crazy thing I am aroused by?

This post was brought to you by the nurse who took blood from my hand this morning, went in a little too hard and hit the bone (Ye Gods, it hurts.) and by the fact that I am one hand typing at the mo. Fun. Donate to RAINN (Put GBBMC08 in the info box!) GBBMC08 Homepage

written by bec \\ tags: GBBMC08, sex meme

Okay, so hopefully you are getting this. I have just upgraded to Wordpress 2.5, which went well. I mean everything looks okay doesn’t it? Any problems, please tell me and I shall stare intelligently at it all and then spend a couple of hours Googling the problem until someone far more knowledgeable than me posts an answer. There are, yes, a couple of issues with the theme around here but I will fix them… potentially tomorrow…

But this isn’t a post about Wordpress. Oh no.

My local local local football team, Kirkham & Wesham, won the second leg of the semi-final of the FA Vase meaning I get to use the immortal phrase ‘We’re going to Wembley!’.

I would like to see the entire town go down and support the club but I foresee a couple of issues.

• The town of Kirkham and Wesham has(according to Wikipedia 7127 people living in it, and Wesham has 3245 (holy crap, really? We have 10,372 people here?)
• Wembley has 90,000 seats. So it may be a little empty
• If half of us travel down by coach (well 5,000 anyway) - we will need about 100 coaches.
• See this - bullet points - never worked for me before - is 2.5 good or what?

Anyway, I am going. May 11th - down south! Breathing the sweet sweet London air baby!

But this post isn’t really about K&W’s excellent win either.

And it isn’t a post reminding people that British Summer Time is here again, which of course means that we are all about to be flooded out!

It’s about the fact that I forgot about it being Earth Hour today which, yes, I feel very very bad about, and to show how bad I feel about it I am ending this post here.

written by bec \\ tags: earth hour, kirkham and wesham football club, kirkham wins!, wordpress 2.5

I just want to start this off with a Happy Birthday to the Blog God/Lord/Master/President/Guru and all round Nice Guy - Dave from Blogography. If you don’t know who he is then I am here to tell you that your life is poorer for it. I have never had the pleasure of meeting him face to face (I hope to rectify that one day) but from what other’s have said it’s like meeting the Pope… but with more booze.

Happy Birthday Dave. You’re even hot when you’re hungover.

So, when I do a meme, it’s not because I can’t be bothered to write something new and shiny. I suppose it’s got something to do with fitting in… and following the crowd… And that’s as deep as I’m getting today - the reason is hidden in the meme.

So, stolen from SJ and Kapgar…

Ten seconds ago I was distracting myself by hunting for a shiny new mobile.
Ten minutes ago I was answering comments from lovely lovely people.
Ten days ago I was organising Mum and Dad’s Silver Wedding Anniversary and totally not stressing out about it.
Ten weeks ago I was sorting out someone’s wireless network.
Ten months ago I was organised in a new house and ‘lovely’ housemates had just moved in.
Ten years ago I was at uni in the first year falling in love… and being me.
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Ten years from now I will be staring 40 in the face and not be afraid.
Ten months from now I will have ticked one of the boxes.
Ten weeks from now I will have moved out into my own place… again…
Ten days from now I will have assimilate whatever Wednesday brings into my life and getting on with it.
Ten minutes from now I will be holding my cat, stroking her chest and trying to slow her breathing.
Ten seconds from now I will press publish.

written by bec \\ tags: Happy Birthday Dave!, Meme

Just a short post.

Read this. It made me laugh.

Well, anything with the phrase;

They want people to have what they call “well-maintained” whips.

in it is sure to raise a smile.

Talk about Health & Safety gone mad.

And now a meme stolen from Karl and Hilly

Here’s how it works:

1. Go to www.photobucket.com
2. Type in your answer to the question in the “search” box
3. Use only the first page
4. Insert the picture into your Blog

1.) What is your relationship status?

2.) What is your current mood?

3.) Who is your favorite band/artist?

4.) What is your favorite movie?

5.) What kind of pet do you have?

6.) Where do you live?

7.) Where do you work?

8.) What do you look like?

9.) What do you drive?

10.) What did you do last night?

11.) What is your favorite TV show?

12.) Describe yourself.

13.) What are you doing today?

14.) What is your name?

15.) What is your favorite candy?

written by bec \\ tags: crucifixion advice, Meme

I was going to find a cute picture with a bunny saying sorry but instead…

(Yes, I do look like crap)

I did not want to, or mean to offend anyone with yesterday’s post. I hope we are all, y’know, okay… I mean coming out as a Conservative who supports a Democrat… what the holy hell was that about? It would be safer to play Russian Roulette with a sub-machine gun!

Just a quick question (doing a little seeing if it’s a good fundraising idea) - how much would you be willing to pay for these items in an auction?

Speaking of crazy people - if you have a spare half hour read this and marvel at how totally tapped Heather ‘water thrower’ Mills really is. You and I both know how much I hate ‘celebrity’ news but this just makes me laugh. It is, as a good friend said, ‘Car Crash Television’ but in a legal setting.

And if you have only a spare two minutes read this instead. You won’t regret it!

written by bec \\ tags: , Sorry

I stole this from Kapgar mostly because it is pure gold, but also because it fits in nicely with the navel gazing I’ve been doing recently… So the idea is to write a letter to a younger version of yourself. I’m going for 16 just purely because that was the age it all started to go a little wibbly…

Dear Bec,

Okay, so you know how you always had that dream that one day a you from the future would come back to tell you how to live your life? Well, here you are.

Right now you are miserable. Your GCSE’s are not going as well as you’d like, you’re convinced you are never going to really know love and that life isn’t worth living. Go to a doctor. Tell them how you feel and make them listen. Depression is not a dirty word. Prozac will make you feel sick but this doesn’t mean you should give up on anti-depressants. Trust me, you don’t have to feel this way - there is no magic cure but there is help. In fact, go to the doctor more – that’s what they are there for. Just because you have had some idiot’s in the past does not mean that you will not find a good one. They do exist.

And while I’m on this subject - you will never get a better opportunity to get into shape. Go swimming, walk places, go to the gym. Get over the embarrassment. You will feel better for it. I know it sounds like nagging but listen to the voice of experience. It’s only going to get harder.

Try not to worry quite so much. You are never going to be everyone’s best friend but there is no one out there who truly hates you. In fact you will find out more people know who you are and like you at school than you ever imagined. And I am still friends with them now. Life is not a rehearsal, even though you play things out and over-analyse them before they have happened,

Don’t accept things because it feels too hard to change them. The school is going to screw you with your A-Levels. Fight to keep the subjects open. And for God’s sake, don’t take Business Studies or Maths. You may like the cold clinical world of maths but your brain just isn’t built for it. Not the way it’s taught at sixth form.

Keep writing, even when you think you are just repeating yourself over and over, one day you will use those piles of notes and wish you had more. I’m not going to tell you that everything you write is golden but… it’s certainly shiny.

Save some money. Really. I know you think you’re going to have plenty but… well, no. Do not become one of those statistics. In fact, re-evaluate your whole outlook on money. Keep the generous streak but remember to look after yourself and always have something in reserve.

You are going to meet some wonderful people over the next few years. They will make you feel as if you are the best person in the whole world to know. You don’t need to impress them. You do not have to be better than every one else.

There is going to be one person who will break your heart for no reason. I tell you this not so you can avoid the experience, because everyone should have his or her heart broken once (just once), but so that you don’t let it kill that spark I know you still have.

The computer is a good place to hide, and as you will discover – a great place to let yourself go. In fact learn as much as you can about it. Really learn. Oh, and buy an Apple Mac as soon as you can afford to. Life becomes so much easier then!

Sing. More. Everyday. You’ll regret not having the practice. Dance whenever you can. Grab every opportunity with both hands. The only regret you should have is for the things you did not do. Oh, and get serious about learning a musical instrument. You won’t believe how many times that’ll help you!

I want to give you a list of people and places to avoid and ones to run towards but if I did that you would not be living – just following a script. And, although we both know how comforting that is, it means you miss out on the spontaneous and that’s what makes you feel alive.

Oh, and don’t say I never gave you nothing but some hokey advice. A little pressie for your 21st birthday. The winning lottery numbers for Saturday 10th April 1999 were 10, 18, 25, 32, 35, 36 Bonus Ball 2.

Bec (Aged 29)

written by bec \\ tags: letter to myself, Meme, navel gazing

I’ll admit it, today was going to be a real struggle. Nothing even remotely inspiring happened at work (well nothing I can blog about) and even the cat has stopped being entertaining.
Ooo, though, update on the cat/ health thing. The vet finally diagnosed what the many things that are wrong with her are: she is allergic to fleas and as we live near a farm - pills to be had once every three days… which is fun with the potential loss of fingers etc. She has been on them for 4 days now and looks more like herself already - hurrah! Just need to work on the balance thing now!

So I am jumping on yet another bandwagon thanks to dear dear Petroville and am calling for a delurking. This means that all you that read but don’t comment need to come out from behind your technological curtains and say hello - introduce yourself to the (literally) 10s of people that already comment! It’s all very friendly here… y’know unless I don’t get my coffee!

And with that I am leaving the floor open… and going to watch yet another Christmas DVD - Much Ado About Nothing!

written by bec \\ tags: cat, De-lurker Day

Today was just another day in which I filled the hours writing letters and filing things and filing little boxes on a computer screen so I really have nothing to say… so it must be meme time!

This one is a variant on one I have done before, this time stolen from the delicious Kapgar

Rules: Put your music player on shuffle, press forward for each question and use the song title as the answer.

What does next year have in store for me?
Brothers On A Hotel Bed - Death Cab For Cutie (oh really?!)

What’s my love life like?
I Still Haven’t Found What I’m Looking For - U2

What do I say when life gets hard?
Dead Souls - Nine Inch Nails

What do I think of upon waking up?
Shimmy - System of a Down

What song will I dance to at my wedding?
Love Will Tear Us Apart - Susanna and the Magical Orchestra

What do I want as a career?
Space Cowboy - Jamiroquai (Does that come with benefits?)

My favorite saying?
Those Sweet Words - Norah Jones

Favorite place?
Faith of the Heart (Star Trek: Enterprise theme) - Russell Watson

What do I think of my parents?
I Predict A Riot - Kaiser Chiefs

What’s my porn star name?
Praise You - Fatboy Slim (I have to celebrate you baby?)

Where would I go on a first date?
The Riders of Rohan - Howard Shore

Drug of choice?
Snow - Emiliana Torrini

Describe myself.
Smells Like Teen Spirit - Nirvana

What is the thing I like doing most?
Buttons - Pussy Cat Dolls (Tee Hee)

What is my state of mind like at the moment?
This Love - Maroon 5

How will I die?
Place Your Hands - Reef (when you gotta go, you gotta go!)

written by bec \\ tags: , iTunes, Meme