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I totally and completely screwed up today.
I accidentally republished all aof my old Camel posts on Out of My Tree by not paying attetion to what I was doing. I was supposed to be reinstalling Camel as a complete blog on my own Hosting site so that those who want to could read it without having to go all the way to Wordpress.com.
As a result of my numbskullery there was a rush of well over a hundred Tweets in less than a minute… which as you imagine was horrendous for anyone who subscribed to my Twitterfeed. And for anyone who subscribes to my Facebook statuses as they all would have drifted over there.
I am, well, a fucking idiot. This is exactly the kind of thing that I try to avoid doing as I don’t want to annoy anyone online, as they are… to be honest, the only ones I feel like I can communicate with as they don’t have to look into my eyes and see the self pitying crap that is there most of the time.
And today started off so bloody well. My iPod didn’t hate me today playing lots of Jason Mraz and I saw someone who always makes me laugh on the bus into work. Work was fun today – busy and hectic, but fun. It was almost montage-y in it’s lightness. I mean, we were all seriously getting on with work but… in a upbeat way.
I felt connected to the physical world in a way I haven’t for a long time… and it scares the ever living crap out of me.
I have been smiling a lot recently. People around me smile back. But the smile on my face is a borrowed emotion from books, music, films and the fantasies in my head. My mask is firmly back on. There is a storm gathering in my head and I’m not sure how much longer I can avoid it.
7 Responses to “Feeling Like Crap For Good Reason”
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January 16th, 2009 at 2:59 am
I was wondering what was going on! LOL!!
January 16th, 2009 at 3:30 pm
Hey, it’s all good. Tech glitches happen. I hope Dave2 and I didn’t come down too hard. The important part is that you know what caused it. That’s half the battle with most technical stuff.
January 16th, 2009 at 3:58 pm
martmankins – The mental kicking I gave myself was worth than anything you and Dave2 said. I felt really bad for pissing you both off though! Sorry!
It’s always worse with the technical stuff though when you know it was so very easily avoidable!
January 16th, 2009 at 3:58 pm
Blondefabulous – Just me being a total bloody idiot!
January 16th, 2009 at 5:15 pm
Oh, I wasn’t pissed off…. just more temporary bothered. When you get that many tweets in your log, it makes the mobile Twitter access a bit more difficult.
February 3rd, 2009 at 4:41 pm
Hoping the storm hasn’t blown in and that you’re finding a way to smile.
February 3rd, 2009 at 4:46 pm
Momo Fali – Hi. Yeah. Am… here… am having an obsession which is taking up quite a lot of time and… nothing is exciting enough to write about. Will, however, be updatign tonight. But thank you… Really.