I close my eyes and I see your face staring at me through the dark.  I cannot see what emotion runs across your face but I know that it scares me.

I try to remain still not letting you know that I am aare of you, even though I know you can see everything I am thinking and feeling.

When will you speak and put me out of my misery?  When will your demons let me go?

My head feels numb with all the conflicting emotions – everything so bright and intense it fades to nothing.

My impatience wins and I speak your name, only my throat burns and I cannot make a noise so the words come out as a whisper which you can pretend not to have heard.

You turn away to go and I know that this is another day wasted.  Another day when I could have resolved my life.

I open my eyes and the memories of yeasr ago fade away in the blackness.

I really should slow down on the cough medicine.