Archive for December 7, 2008

Today I went back to the scene of one the turning points in my life.

I always thought I was kind of useless and worthless and generally a bit crappy all round but it wasn’t until I worked at the Garden Centre that I actually had it confirmed to me.

I went into that place in 2002, feeling so very wobbly. I had failed at the whole uni thing, I had just lost a job for God knows what reason, the world was a new and horrible place, it was not a good time.

We had to wear flat black shoes and the only ones I had were just big enough… or so I though. They cut into my feet so bad that I was bleeding by the end of the morning… and then I had another 6 hours left to do.

I was there as an administrator – a job I had been doing successfully for over a year by that point but apparently the manager (who does not work for the company now) thought that it was his job to belittle me everyday and make me feel like I was useless and worthless and a bit crappy all round.

After three months he decided he ‘had to let me go due to incompetence’ my life kinda spiraled until I hit rock bottom… and then went a little bit further.

I haven’t been back to the garden centre since.

Until today.

My dad and brother both work there and they, averaging it out, HATE the place… mostly because the management at head quarters are, funnily enough, completely incompetent.

I wanted to burn the place to the ground for what it did to me… and every time my brother comes home just tired and broken from being let down by his employers… and every time my dad comes home full of pain and hatred because of the horrors of working there… I want to burn it down still.

The lights, though, were so pretty and the gifts they had there were so nice… and the turkey and cranberry baguette was so nice…

But, I don’t know, there was something just wrong… I will never be able to shake it.

One person can change you. And I was changed there.

Gift of the day:

Mini Combat RC Helicopters

As I forgot to go this yesterday, there are two here now.

Remote control? Check. Helicopters? Check. Laser beams? Check. Battle in mid air? Double check.
Just too good for words.

Come on?  Safe violence!

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St Eval - Orange and Cinnamon

BIG CHRISTMASSY CANDLE.  Smells like oranges and cinnamon.  Want.

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