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Why are some people so afraid of the internet? Why are some people so afraid of moving forwards? Why do some people wait until the very last moment to change their minds?
Sometimes I want to throw my hands up in despair.
The work I have spent the last God nows how long doing has all been for nothing.
I am once again the idiot who actually thought people would be able to remember conversations had a couple of months ago and would be able to stick with it.
I thought we were finally getting somewhere. How very very wrong I was.
And now I feel like I am back at square one, and I have no purpose again.
I feel very disappointed. I thought for once I had actually done the right thing. I really should have learned by now. I really really should have.
Sorry for the rantiness. Sometimes I wonder why the hell I bother.
I am treated like a petulant child and have been told on more than one occasion that I don’t know what I am talking about because I don’t have kids and am not married, (This is meant with all possible respect to all the wonderful wives and mothers out there but) since fucking when did having a kid or getting married imbue you with special wisdom?
I feel like they pat me on the head and send me on my merry. And because they can’t accept that I have knowledge about, well, anything they dismiss it as not real. It can’t be.
I just want to cry. Think I might throw up first though.
6 Responses to “Two Steps Back”
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September 2nd, 2008 at 1:24 am
I say screw ‘em. Seriously, if they can’t recognise your abilities and appreciate your efforts why bother? I’m sure there must be other worthwhile organisations in the area crying out for any help they can get.
September 2nd, 2008 at 1:39 am
I seriously hate the attitude you’re speaking of. I’ve experienced it first hand and it’s completely LAME. For what it’s worth, you aren’t alone. But I know that’s not much consolation when you’re dealing with it on a regular basis.
Ungraceful Girls last blog post..Spanning the Distance
September 2nd, 2008 at 8:12 am
Many of the people I know who are married with kids are complete morons. I can’t believe they would use that as a way of gauging someone’s worth. But they do. I get the ‘you only have one kid so what do you know’ comments all the time. Plonkers. I think you are very talented and a lovely person to boot. A pox on all those who don’t appreciate you.
Selmas last blog post..It Might As Well Be Spring
September 2nd, 2008 at 5:04 pm
yorksdevil – the temptation to run is great… but the morning always brings nice emails which remind me why I do it!
Ungraceful Girl – I am just trying to bite my own tongue. Lame is a really good description!
Selma – I wonder how many kids do you have to have before you ‘know’? 3? 5? 10?
September 2nd, 2008 at 9:03 pm
Urgh! Sorry sweets. Sometimes doing the right thing just isn’t the right thing to do, or something like that.
*hugs*
Penelopes last blog post..Stuff and nonsense.
September 3rd, 2008 at 12:24 am
Penelope – It did not make for a good continuation of my happy volunteer spirit! And thank you.