I’m not ‘boring’. I’m English.
Waiting and Waiting and Not Getting Anywhere
So I landed myself in A & E today with the not breathing properly, the feeling sick, the being oh so very tired and the weird pains everywhere.
After waiting for what felt like ever I saw a doctor who was only mildly rude who, after assuming it was a chest infection (oh where have I heard that before), told me that all of my symptoms are in my head, probably caused by stress.
Which doesn’t help at all.
Because there is no magic pill or cure for stress.
And I just know I am going to lose another job because of them.
Damn damn doctor. Who also suggested I read The Power Of Now as this will sort out all my problems.
I don’t need another self help book. I need answers. I need a god damn miracle at this point.
I am so fucking tired!
Sorry.
I just can’t believe that all this is in my head. I can’t believe that I am doing this to myself.
Crap. Now I’m crying again.
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about 2 years ago
Oh Bec, you poor thing. What can I do to help? Even though you may not feel stressed, there may be silent triggers setting off your physical symptoms. Can I recommend trying to identify what is stressing you or causing you anxiety. I would hazard a guess that it is your physical symptoms that are stressing you. How do I know this? Because I have been on the same merry-go-round myself. It sounds odd to say this but doctors cannot seem to understand that chronic ill health causes stress to the person suffering from it. Seems obvious to me but then I’m not a learned doctor. What has helped me in the past is learning to recognise my anxiety triggers. A bit of therapy – a psychologist not a psychiatrist and believe it or not, acupuncture. Works like a charm. I was very sceptical at first but was pleasantly surprised with the results. And remember, hon, you’re not alone – a lot of people can relate to what you’re going through. Hope you feel better soon.
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about 2 years ago
I have this self helpbook I keep meaning to tell you about.
Seriously though, can you get in to see another doc?
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about 2 years ago
Urgh! This is crap! You need to see someone else Bec. Whether or not they can “label” whatever it is you have, the fact is, there IS something wrong and handing you a book isn’t going to fix it!
Why is it that doctors can be so bloody pompous sometimes?
Time to go banging on the GP’s door again?
Hugs sweetheart, just yell if I can do anything!
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about 2 years ago
A&E, although probably the right choice for breathing problems as you could get checked out and made ‘safe”, is not the best place for a diagnosis. The Drs there are often quite junior.
Do you get anxious? Because if you do some anxiety management therapy might be beneficial. I imagine it would take about 6 months to come through on the NHS so get your gp to get your name down now (It might not be 6 months though, our psychology service has recently got their waiting list down a a month)
I’m right in assuming you have an appointment with a specialist? When is it?
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about 2 years ago
OMG! That had to be one of the worst Dr visits! Right behind the one in NY where the staff left a woman to die in the Psych ER!! It can’t be all in your head! That’s what they tried to tell me, and oooooooo when someone finally LOOKED, it turned out I had Celiac Disease. Hmmmm… medicals are getting lazy. Hang in there. You are not crazy!
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about 2 years ago
More masturbation is necessary – it relieves stress.
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about 2 years ago
Power of Now is great, but you’re going to get nothing out of it in the state you’re in. Things that have worked for me (in this order): yoga, meditation, hypnotherapy. Have you tried any of those?
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about 2 years ago
Selma – On the money you may be. I have been thinking about the times I felt healthy and what has changed from those times – trying to identify my anxiety triggers. Let’s see what the next step is.
Nat – Self help books are good for one thing only – filling space on a shelf. Am now doing the waiting game for another specialist appointment.
Penelope – you are a love. Have appointment with GP first week of August the day after PCOS treatment plan appointment. Is a while to wait but this is what I get for having the best GP in the area!
Dan – The rational part of my brain knows you are right and is nodding sagely at your advice. There is quite a large part which is having a grumble whinge at the NHS. I honestly don’t know what I was expecting. I think I’ve been watching too much hospital drama TV.
My next specialist appointment is with the gynae dept in August for PCOS. I have to wait for a referral letter to go to my GP from A&E and then she can make an appointment with the specialists at the hospital. As soon as that it through I shall be skipping with excitement at the next step forward. Thanks for the advice re the anxiety management therapy though – I will mention that at my next appointment.
blondefabulous – oh I have had worse… not as bad as the NY Psych thing though – jeez! Had a quick googling of Celiac Disease and can I just say – ooo, you poor thing!
Avitable – Knew I could rely on you for the quick fix answer – is starting to eat into my work day though!
Carly – I have tried meditation in the past and it worked wonders. Am going to make sure I find the time and space to take it up again. Am looking into Yoga classes in the area; hypnotherapy, however, scares the living bejeezus out of me! But thanks for the advice and for the longest post title I have seen in quite some time – Cordelia in Angel, right?