First Time
Where better to start a month of talking about sex and sexuality than the first time.
Set the scene. Okay.
I was young and pathetically in ‘follow you round like a dumb animal’ love. I had always been the ‘friend’ who lived vicariously through her much more attractive friends romances. So when someone paid attention I would really focus. I would giggle in all the right places and hold hands and do pretty much anything to make sure that I stayed in my happy fantasy zone… with all the melodrama that comes with it. Even though it was a long distance thing…
ANYWAY… There was a party to celebrate a birthday. Parties, of course, being an excuse to get drunk, have a crisis and a windswept melodramatic argument, storm out, be chased and then have a huge make up scene.
Well, it all went very well, the drinking, the crisis (I saw him kissing someone else), the melodramatic argument (face slap, turn on heel, everyone staring), stormed out and was chased down the road (best friend followed me) to the local park, which would be walked through to home. Best friend was being all defensive and hateful to him, in that way that best friend’s are legally required to be. He was all manly and tall and sent her packing.
"She kissed me. It’s not my fault."
Now, we all know that I am a sucker for a good line … and that wasn’t a particularly good line. It took ten whole minutes of him begging forgiveness before I believed that he was an angel, and the much more attractive girl he had been kissing was an evil temptress trying to lure away my man.
I, to this day, can’t remember the thought process in my head that lead to me losing my underwear in that park, and thinking it was a good idea. I do remember it was up against a wall. I do remember it was over very quickly and I remember it feeling ‘jerky’ and terrible.
And I remember us breaking up not long after that.
I really wasn’t ready for it. I wasn’t emotionally prepared for the rollercoaster of crap that would go through my head, not being able to tell anyone as I was so ashamed, going through the horror of thinking I was pregnant and having to travel to a town 20 miles away from my own to guarantee no one would see me buying a test kit. And then, after we broke up being convinced I was ‘rubbish’ and going through all that with only my diary to tell.
So romantic it was not, good it was not, but at least I got some fresh air!
So, do any of you feel brave enough to tell your first time stories?
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Love the new design on your blog. Looking good.
How old were you for your first time? Hell, I didn’t even DATE until after high school, I was such a clumsy nerd. Lost my virginity at 18. Details will be coming on my blog, I’m sure.
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Comment by Karl — April 3, 2008 @ 5:45 am
Karl - this design is just here for this month - thought I’d make a bit of a splash - and it works properly in IE! My first time - just 16. Stupid stupid 16.
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Comment by Bec — April 3, 2008 @ 12:03 pm
my first time was almost as bad. was on holiday met fell in love got unbelievably drunk and so did she and did it while in the same room as four sleeping blind people. oh yes i was that good we never even woke them up oh yess im that damn good! i came to the conclusion along time ago that no ones first time was any good most people have horror stories of there first time i think its because at that age you think its such a big deal so you build up and build up until your hormones are so fucked up that when it does eventually happen its almost always crap because in your head you’ve built it up to much.
Comment by Neil — April 3, 2008 @ 1:15 pm
Erm, no.
Comment by yorksdevil — April 3, 2008 @ 1:57 pm
I’m not touching this on my blog, people at work read that.
But I lost my virginity at a relatively late age whilst watching an episode of Star Trek next generation (Gambit, if you must know).
It was rather good, both the sex and the star trek episode.
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Comment by Dan — April 3, 2008 @ 4:35 pm
Oh yikes I couldn’t possibly tell my first time story! I’m cringing now just thinking about it. It’s a wonder any of us go for the second time at all!
Loving the new design - very sexy ;o)
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Comment by Penelope — April 3, 2008 @ 5:08 pm
I like the new design, too.
My first time, eh? I was 48 and she was 12. There was urine everywhere. What a mess.
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Comment by Avitable — April 3, 2008 @ 9:27 pm
I’ll be telling my “first time” story on my blog, as well. But not quite yet. But it was actually, very, very good.
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Comment by Simply Jane — April 3, 2008 @ 10:05 pm
Neil - There’s always someone to prove us wrong - Dan has a story about a good first time - he got to watch Star Trek!
yorksdevil - not even if I dance around making chicken noises whilst chucking yellow feathers at you?
Dan - I find it quite endearing that you can remember what episode it was… and then wonder why you know what episode it was!
Penelope - Thank you, the red is just for the next month, but I imagine the only change I’ll make next month is go green again… But who knows? And thank you for joining the side of ‘ooo, terrible’ first timers!
Avitable - Thank you too! Wow, your first time sounds terrible and in the future too!
Simply Jane - Another for the ‘good’ first timers - actually quite jealous. Will look forward to reading it and petulantly throwing things at the screen in a ‘grumble, whinge’ way!
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Comment by Bec — April 4, 2008 @ 2:02 am
I wrote about mine in my book.
But I have to know… did you ever find your underwear?
Comment by Carly — April 4, 2008 @ 5:28 am
Carly - Mmmm… book… jealous? Me? Yes. Underwear - no - totally gone, and part of a set too!
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Comment by Bec — April 4, 2008 @ 7:10 am
Hahahahaha. Sorry. I’m still laughing about Avitable’s first time. I had no idea he was from the future.
My first time was marred by several moments of the guy getting rather overexcited too quickly (if you know what I mean.) By the time he got around to controlling himself in a manageable way I was almost asleep. No fireworks there!
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Comment by Selma — April 6, 2008 @ 1:25 pm
Selma- Male over-excitement is the worst… although that does give me an idea for a post! Do you think maybe we should find Avi’s 12 yr old and warn her?
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Comment by Bec — April 6, 2008 @ 10:40 pm