So the pills, they turned on me today, went on strike, refused to do the floaty thing anymore. The pain, oh the pain… All day. Being asked if I wanted to go home about 19 times was nice. Refusing to do it 19 times? S-T-U-P-I-D.
The lovely cotton wool turned into a thick grey sludge which made me feel simultaneously like I was drowning as I was so heavy, and like I wasn’t actually in my body anymore. There wasn’t a moment when I didn’t feel nauseous but couldn’t be sick. I felt as weak as a kitten all day - attempts to raise blood sugars just resulted in more sick feeling. I couldn’t even face dinner tonight even though it was one of my favourites (Italian meatballs with tagliatelle (I know I’ve spelt that wrong…)) and fell into bed as soon as I got in.
I am only blogging now as my body decided I am allowed to be awake and in minimal pain long enough to get this post out there.
Just want to say thank you to my Mum for the cold flannel. Oh yeah, the hot flashes that were funny yesterday were draining today.
I have realised though this whole experience that I could never be an opiates addict as I would like a consistent high through the proceedings - not this hit and miss palaver.
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Nothing like a good drug high, huh? Feel better.
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Comment by Karl — February 20, 2008 @ 12:59 am
Sorry you’re missing out on the “floaty thingy.” I know how much that helps. Here’s hoping you float, followed by feeling much better on a permanent basis, very soon!
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Comment by kapgar — February 20, 2008 @ 1:05 am
Sounds horrendous - tooth ache is the worst pain I can remember experiencing. Hope you feel better soon.
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Comment by Jo — February 20, 2008 @ 12:24 pm
Ugh. Feel better soon Bec.
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Comment by Miss Britt — February 20, 2008 @ 12:58 pm
Karl - And yesterday was nothing like a good drug high. Today was better though.
kapgar - yes, I miss the floating. I also miss the whole ‘not being in pain - tomorrow no pain joy (hopefully)
Jo - thank you. It really is - tooth ache and, ooo, ear ache are the worst pains I’ve ever experienced. Fracturing a bone didn’t even come close!
Miss Britt - Summed up beautifully. Thank you.
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Comment by Bec — February 20, 2008 @ 10:07 pm