Am in a ridiculously confident mood. Interviews this week have gone well – am feeling hopeful about the future. Have another interview tomorrow morning for a short contract admin job that will start on Monday. Am feeling good about it. I know I will be right for them and am hoping that I make this abundantly clear during the interview.
My biggest problem at the moment (other than the fact I can’t find a really important document – I hate living with my stuff in the garage) is the fact that I am feeling confident about it and I am beginning to worry that I may come off as smug and superior, instead of bright and friendly. In a phone interview I had yesterday I was praised for my warm demenour and the ease of conversation. Does this mean that I talk too much? Is this a bad thing? Maybe I shoulk just take a deep breath and, y’know, shut up.
It was the one consistent thing on my school reports – ‘talks too much’, and then ‘a little wordy’ in my writing – you know how I drivel on here and say something in 50 words when it could be done in 10? I was always the one to ask for extra paper in exams – not because I had a lot to say but just that it was taking a lot to say the… er… little I had to say. Heh.
Because of self confidence issues in the past and still) I think that 90% of what comes out of my mouth is un-thought-through garbage, so I tend to stay quiet if there is a technical/intellligent conversation going on around me (unless I know what I am talking about) or if the other people seem to be supremely confident… This falls down because I play the game of most comfortable in their own skin along with the best of them. So, it stands to reason that the supremely confident people could just be faking it too.
Oh God, it’s too much to think about and I absolutely have to sleep now. I’ll revisit this soon… when my eyes aren’t closing.